It's been awhile since I last posted my thoughts. Although I have formulated them numerous times in my head and thought I would sit down and blog them, it never seemed to happen. Well, T is at work and monkey in the bath playing, so I figured I would take my chance.
After a long few frustrating months of house hunting, we have given up for now. We have friends who will be moving in the spring or summer and we have first dibs on their house. Although, we may or may not go that route depending on inspection results and their price they decide. For now though, we wait, pay off debt, and save. It's a hard season for me. I ma not used to apartment life. And although this place is bigger than our house in Louisiana was and it is a split floor plan, I miss my house...I miss my yard. I miss making it more of ours...I am trying to be patient and each time I find myself discontent I pray...I think Lord, please take this non grateful attitude away and remind me today of the reasons I need to be thankful. More often than not, he send someone our way we need to bless. One night, he sent someone who needed items for a single mom who was trying to get off the streets. Over Thanksgiving, we had one of my cheerleaders and her family over. Her dad had just lost his job and I was starting to get close to them, so we decided to have a time to bless them with food and fellowship. It ended up being the best Thanksgiving yet. So, as I think of all the reasons I am discontent, each time I turn to HIM and ask him to soften my heart and turn it back in the right direction.
T and I have talked a lot about where we fit here. Although the picture is still unclear, after much discussion, we realized that while our hearts are still partly in Louisiana, and although I would love to live near my friends and family in Indy, this is the best place for us to raise Cohen and we have been blessed with an awesome MDO program and after school sitter for him as well as good jobs. So, although we sit unsure, at this time, we are praying God opens those doors and begins to show us where we fit in Frisco.
I am still running. I am currently working on what they call streaking...it is running from Thanksgiving Day every day til New Years. I kinda started a few days late, so I will be running a few days past New Years, but my plan is one really long run a week followed by several 3 mile runs and on my normal rest days, I will do 1-2 miles. I am also back to strength training. Since the car accident, my left shoulder and arm have not been the same. The MRI they did showed nothing, so without paying tons of out of pocket expenses to a nerve dr, my chiropractor and I opted for me to begin strength training 3-4 times a week to build back that muscle to see if there is improvement at all. I am thankful for the running and although I dread the extra workouts with strength training, I know it will help me drop the weight I want to drop.
This season is a hard season for me...I struggle Thanksgiving through the New Year, as I miss being near my family and I long for one day for T's family to come around and accept me. It is in this season this year, I am doing my best to choose JOY and remind myself each time I am down that this isn't a season about me anyway...it's a season about sharing HIS son. It is in those moments that I again ask HIM to soften my heart and redirect me.
Cohen's school fundraiser is this coming Saturday. I am participating in it for Sparkle Stitches and A Polka Dot Whale companies located in Indiana. My friend in Indiana combined with her friend are awesome at sewing. I always have them making me baby gifts and what not, so I decided to help spread the word about their businesses and do the vendor fair for them. Together, they shipped this huge package of items to be sold and to display, so I know it will be a huge hit! Praying they make some money and that they receive orders as a result.
To top the santa breakfast off, I am the basket mom for both his classes. I have been in charge of gathering items and making a basket to be auctioned off. The baby basket went off with a hit and was easy, the other was not so easy. However, I am happy to say I finished it this weekend and will be sending it in on Tuesday :)
Thomas in in mandatory overtime right now, so we are hit and miss as to when we see each other, but we are making it work and thankful he has a job.
Monkey man is growing and amazes us every day. We head out for Disney in a week and a half, and he is so excited to go see Stitch, Mickey, Dudus (Darth Vader), and Buzz. I know he will love it! Although not a Disney person, I know it will be neat to see him interact.
Well, bathtime is ending, so I must go...
Until later,
Stephani
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