so many have asked..

So I had a few people ask, so I thought I would just address the question...

How do I feel about my ex getting remarried? 

Honestly, I'm glad for him.  I think it's good for him that he found someone to share his life with.  Why not be happy?  I found Thomas, and Thomas makes me happy.  Yes, it saddens my heart when I found out she was seeing him while we were married (anyone who does the math that they met 10 years ago and dated then knows that is when we were married), but that is water under the bridge now.  Yes, it has made me question who I was as a person and what I did wrong to deserve to be cheated on, but again...it's water under the bridge.

Honestly, I am so thankful I found a husband who loves God, serves God, and lives it out.  I also love that T is like me and loves to serve others, even if it means making ends meat to do so.  If we can give something and bless someone and not earn money off of it...to me, that is far more precious and rewarding.  Things were never that way with my ex.  He hated church, thought going was getting involved in a cult, and he thought God was just something you based your values off of.  Granted, I think a lot of that was spoken out of anger for the situation with his mom dying, he said it and lived life that way.  He was big into drinking and partying.  Me, once I found Christ and truly started living my walk with Christ, I chose not to.  That caused a lot of friction between us.  Granted, I never wanted the divorce, his choice to walk away was just that...a choice.  And, unfortunately, Indiana will grant it and not think twice or hear if I even want it, etc. 

Yet, in the end, I have been given the biggest blessing ever...my family...my life with T and monkey man.  I love my life.  I love that we go to church together, that we are involved together, that we spend time together.  I love that we are active outdoors and that T is a hands on dad.  I couldn't be more thankful for that.

I wish my ex the best.  I hope he finds the happiness he so is searching for...I pray one day he sees that only true happiness comes from a relationship with Christ, and I will keep praying that he finds that. 

So, there's the answer to the question everyone has raised over and over again. 

Until later...

Stephani